I think one of these days we're going to get this traveling thing down. It's not the 5 hour drive...it's the being away from home that's been difficult the past two trips to Baton Rouge. I'm realizing that Jackson has reached an age where being away from his routine, bed, normal surroundings, easy pace of life is quite difficult for him (and me.) It's almost like his senses get overloaded and he just doesn't know how to deal. I can imagine how hard it would be for such a little guy. It's also hard for me because I want to do so many things...see friends, visit with family, go by LSVI, hang out at JBC, meet up with old co-workers, eat at favorite restaurants, travel these familiar streets (which seem so small now), enjoy seeing LSU written all over everything, just enjoy the sights and sounds of home. I love this place. But right now, for this season, my little guy comes first. I'm chilling at mom's while he naps, and although I'm here all by myself, boy does it feel good to be home!
Living away from home and having two families plus friends to visit is no easy task. In fact, it's overwhelming to the point that sometimes when I'm here, I just want to cry. There are so many people I would love to see that it just breaks my heart that we can't do it all. I know in time it will get easier to manage; I'm still learning. God knows I need lessons in not worrying more than anyone. I have grown so much in the past year, and I know this is all part of it. I love our new home, and I love this home. I love this opportunity for growth and to show Jackson the kind of selfless love my parents have always shown me.
Thank you, God, for the opportunity to be at home. Thank you for our home in Texas. Help me to be calm and enjoy the time we have here with loved ones. Help me not to waste a minute worrying over what will happen next or how it will happen or when. Oh, and I do have a small list of requests for my time here. Just if you have time...can you make these happen for me? They're kind of a big deal...
1. CC's coffee (at least one cup)
2. Boiled crawfish
3. Las Palmas chips and salsa
4. Lunch at Chimes
5. At least one drive through LSU and by my old house
6. At least one trip to "my Target"
7. Some Oak Grove Jambalaya mix
8. Sunday worship at my church (wonder if I can make it through the songs without crying this time? Doubt it...that's OK)
Well, that about covers it. And if you could also help me to not gain any weight while granting me these requests, that would be great. ;)
Well, my little man is awake. We really are having a great time here. We've already gotten to have lunch at Frostop with our Pops, hang out with MawMaw and PawPaw Silvio & Grammie, hang out with KK, Poppy, Aunt LB & Uncle Benj some last night, visit the new youth room at JBC this morning, and we know there are many more fun times to come this week!
PS - For anyone who cares, diaper changes have gotten WAAAAAAAAAAAY better! I just wanted to say that here because I feel like someone has been praying for us since they read my blog about my frustration!!! Kristen recommended I try singing "Wheels on the Bus", and it has worked wonders!!! I tried singing before, but maybe I was singing boring songs? Now he claps everytime and is an angel for me when I change him! It's so funny; as soon as I put him on the changing table, he starts clapping his hands. He knows what to expect! Thank you!!! And don't stop praying because I don't want a return of the past! Anyway, he is growing so much---cruising and talking up a storm. Can't believe he'll be 11 months in 2 weeks!
Love y'all
~Lindz
2 comments:
Lol I totally have my Mom send me Oak Grove jambalaya mixes any time she has to mail me something!
It is all worth it as you well will attest! (but I do understand the little voice that reminds you how challenging or impossible it is to do what you want to the extent you want as we did before kids) So glad I do have the opportunity to grow less and less selfish too.
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