One of His favorites?

**Update: The Lord was gracious. :) I MUST give Him the glory for our smooth and productive morning (besides a short meltdown in the library while we were waiting on some books but I didn't blame him because I wanted to meltdown, too.) I can't believe I carted him all over town like I did, but we got a lot done--including finding the last nap mat on the planet for my baby boy who has moved to a new MDO class. Y'all, it is so cute. It's "Cars", and it has a little pillow and blanket attached to it, and it rolls up and has little handles. I'm going to be such the gooberish mom so excited to bring him to MDO with his new nap mat when we get back from our trip. Anyway, that's it. We are well on our way to being ready for our vacation! Thank the Lord for a productive morning!**

This is a real quick post. Jacks and I are about to head out to run some errands. I have a few things...well, a lot of things...that I'd like to get done before our trip. This morning, Jacks has been quite whiny. It's been one of those mornings where I have to remind myself over and over that this is the little boy that I love soooo much and would give my life for.

That has not worked this morning. Trying not to show my frustration, I started praying for patience. And then...I caught myself. I was bargaining with GOD! Ha! I started praying...Dear Lord, pleaaase, pretty please, just grant me patience today.

And then it hit me...Oh, He'll grant me patience alright. He'll show me how the troubles of this morning weren't that big of a deal. I started to fret...trying to take back my request. OK, Lord, I want patience...but I just want you to give it to me freely this time. Don't give it to me by teaching me a lesson...

I was imagining us sitting in traffic and Jacks having meltdowns in places and ohhh the fear of how the Lord would choose to give me patience.

And then I laughed at myself. Who says that to God? I want you to give me patience, but I don't want to have to suffer any consequences at all for my sinful nature.

I thought...you know...if God had favorites (and He doesn't!)...I could very well be that mischievous kid in the class that you just can't help but love.

So ridiculously ridiculous.

I'm so glad our God is so much more patient with me than I am with life!

Maybe He will grant me patience at no cost today because I was honest about my mistake. Oops..there I go again, trying to work this situation in my favor.

We shall see...Jacks and I are off to run errands. Say a prayer. :)